Overwhelming feeling of Love.....

Do you ever get that overwhelming feeling like everything is going to be ok? I got that yesterday while at church. I have only been to church once in the past probably 8-10 years until yesterday.... I have had alot of baggage of hurt and anger and have just detached myself from God and attending any services. When my brother asked me on Saturday if I wanted to take the kids to church with them on Sunday, I felt like it was something that I needed to do for the boys. For they have never been to church. Yet when I left church, it was by far something that I needed to do for me...... 

I have carried so much anger and hurt for things that were out of my control for too many years and these things have just been bringing me down and ruining my realationship with people in my life, and God. I cannot say that I have forgiven everything in my life that has hurt me, yet I can say that I am trying and want to. I do not want to carry all the baggage with me daily and let in ruin my life. 


Talking about God, and Jesus with the boys has been great, and helping them to understand life and why we are here. I want them to have that realationship with God that I didn't at such a young age, and to grow up learning daily. They have been taking turns praying and saying blessings, yet you wonder if they are learning enough from you, yet who can say.. You have to just be that role model that they need.... I want to be that for them, and hopefully that leads them in the right direction in life. 


I am not saying that I am perfect, yet I am saying that I have let something back into my life that was gone for quite some time.... Now finding that new realationship within me is the most important part.

I'm Moving On

I cannot believe that it has been almost a month since I blogged.... I guess I was just feeling alittle down and didn't think everyone only wanted to hear the bad..... Well, who cares what you think, here I go with LIFE.

With emotions on rollercoasters, and my husband just being an ass, I have actually had a really good past month. 

Uncle Doug turned 40, and Anna threw him a party at O'Briens in Ashland. Needless to say, 12 beers and like 6 shots later, we had fun. Even more fun the next day pulling over 3 times to vomit on the way home... Yuck, but we had fun and Doug turned the big 40.


We had Matt's annual birthday party on the same day as OSU vs. Michigan, and of course we won..... Who would have thought. It was a fun day of friends, drinking, food, and xmas ale. Just yet another reason why I love being home, family..... Oh, and by the way, Matt turned 28 and he is catching up to me... You know, since I will stay 31 forever. 


We had the Reynolds Thanksgiving a couple days early, the sunday before. It was great and relaxing, yet the kids couldn't be there. It was great seeing everyone and all of the Buzzards. With Grandma not being with us anymore, we see them even less than before, which is very little. Such a small town, yet little communication. How does life go by so fast..... I really missed grandma and days like those are the hardest. Grandma and Grandpa would have celebrated their 53 year anniversary this past November 17th.... Miss you grandma, more than words or tears could ever say.... Kisses and hugs.


Thanksgiving was great, and I got to have the kids for the whole day. I know you are all thinking, what does he want in return, who knows... I am still waiting and wondering. It was great visiting with family and eating too much food. Days like these are my favs, just hanging with everyone you love... Plus, I did really good at poker which I never do.....

Mom and I broken our Black Friday Virginity together this year. Neither of us had ever done it, and it wasn't as bad as expected. Mom through a couple lines out to a few people, yet deserving of it, and we kept moving. When we got to Walmart at 4:45am lines were from the registers to the back of the building. Oh my goodness, but by the time we finished shopping we had only half way back. Good deals though, and fun. We also did Game Stop, Dunhams, and Kohls. The whole day was a success and got the deals we went looking for. I just more than anything enjoyed the morning with my mom. 


Last friday I went to see New Moon with Angie, Anna, and Claire. Now keep in mind that I have never seen Twilight, yet still loved the movie.... I am a Jacob fan, yes I am. I have always had a thing for muscles and a good tan.... That was great, yet not long enough. Too much other stuff going on and dropping off of the kids, so not enough time with the girls. 


For the rest of the weekend of Thanksgiving I spent it with Mom. We went shopping on Saturday and did dinner with Max, then the River horse in Bellville. It was just relaxing and peaceful. Much needed, plus it gave Matt and Terri a quiet weekend. I went and helped mom on Sunday clean at a Schumacher home, and then got the boys......


That is my last 30 days, nothing too exciting, yet just great in my eyes... Family and happiness........ Now I can't wait for Christmas....