Do you ever get that overwhelming feeling like everything is going to be ok? I got that yesterday while at church. I have only been to church once in the past probably 8-10 years until yesterday.... I have had alot of baggage of hurt and anger and have just detached myself from God and attending any services. When my brother asked me on Saturday if I wanted to take the kids to church with them on Sunday, I felt like it was something that I needed to do for the boys. For they have never been to church. Yet when I left church, it was by far something that I needed to do for me......
I have carried so much anger and hurt for things that were out of my control for too many years and these things have just been bringing me down and ruining my realationship with people in my life, and God. I cannot say that I have forgiven everything in my life that has hurt me, yet I can say that I am trying and want to. I do not want to carry all the baggage with me daily and let in ruin my life.
Talking about God, and Jesus with the boys has been great, and helping them to understand life and why we are here. I want them to have that realationship with God that I didn't at such a young age, and to grow up learning daily. They have been taking turns praying and saying blessings, yet you wonder if they are learning enough from you, yet who can say.. You have to just be that role model that they need.... I want to be that for them, and hopefully that leads them in the right direction in life.
I am not saying that I am perfect, yet I am saying that I have let something back into my life that was gone for quite some time.... Now finding that new realationship within me is the most important part.
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You should think about summer camp for the boys. I was a camp counselor at a Christian Camp (Camp Asbury) and I loved seeing those little faces ask questions. We made it fun so it wasn't 24/7 God or in your face. It was like any other summer camp, but we had bible studies every day to learn and ask questions...we incorporated nature walks and fun stuff along the way to teach little kids (and older kids) how God is everywhere.
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