Life as I see it!!

Life has been so blessed lately and I am feeling like the old me more and more. I know life throws everyone punches and struggles and I just didn't deal with mine very well. But I am really feeling like I am coming out of it.

I started a new job this month, and it feels nice to get life back on track. After having a career for so long it sucked to have that insecure feeling for awhile. But I can say, this feels good.... I have a good feeling and all I can do is work hard to be successful at it.

My baby has kindergarten registration this next month!!! I can't believe it. I feel like time is just flying by.... Now if I can just detach him from mommy long enough to do good, that would be great!!

Ashtin & Landyn are taking guitar lessons now. Landyn seems to pick it up really easily and loves it. Ashtin does really good, but he just doesn't want to work for it. This kid is going to be the one that tests me the most I believe. He is just like his dad and bull headed just like me.... Then there is Landyn whoms teacher just loves him and everyone else.... They think he should go into the gifted program. He use to be my little devil and is now just the sweetest thing.... I'm blessed with them all...

And my heart is finally feeling a little better. I am learning to let go of some of my hate and anger. Life is hard, and I must just face that. I cannot hate the past anymore or wish it was different. I love my boys and they r the best of it all. I am starting to feel hope again in things and hoping to soften my heart.... I just have to learn that I cannot bare it all alone and that it was just a test. I have won, and I am through it. I give thanks for that daily.