Am I overly sensitive or do I expect too much???

I had gotten a much better sleeping pattern until the past week or so.... I find myself just angry and full of disappointment..... I am struggling with just being an adult because I have too, then to feeling disguist. Have you ever been around someone whom makes you feel 1 inch tall, yet you have to deal with it anyway. With every word that comes out of their mouth is about something you have done wrong in their eyes, yet never about all of the good.... Being around someone like that gets draining and overwhelming to the point that you start feeling everything is criticizing whether it is or not, and you became angry and full of a lot less drive to achieve what will in some way be found wrong in their eyes. So why try, why do what makes sense or a good idea, do the wrong or longer way to surpass. I'm not perfect and I can't deny one or 2 good moments, yet they don't cover up all the horrible ones. My favorite is the idea of a talk where I am told "you need to listen" for 10 min straight while I am bashed in a smart ass word phrasing way that they knew I would catch onto, to then be told its my turn. I am at this point in tears because I just listened to 10 min of all what they thought was all my fault and nothing but another way to make me feel like dirt under their shoe, so instead of firing back I babble real fast with one thing I think is wrong and 10 words into my first sentence I am cut off to be told I'm wrong. So what's best for me, to say ok and find an excuse to walk away..... Yet I am told that it's ok that it's this way and deal. And deal is what I must do, yet it sucks. I think so many factors that are too long to explain right now have helped this situation get where it is, yet I just don't know where it ends. I am embarrassed that some things have turned out the way they did, and I feel like I lost something that was never really mine. I know deep down it was definitely for the best for me and my family, yet professionally and personally I felt embarrasses because I had to explain over and over why what I was so vocal to everyone was going to happen, then didn't happen. And I felt like I was a loser professionally even though financially it was better off. So my ego hurt...... I know, silly, yet it is what it is. So now, how do u deal with what bothers you so much and hurts you that others don't see the behind the scenes, and go home happy and full filled at the end of the day. Because yes, we all have responsibilities and in what is today's economy we r thankful to have jobs, yet we want to feel respected.....

I kinda feel better. I have been sitting on a lot of that for days and couldn't figure out how to get it out without feeling like a Winey baby. My biggest downfall in this is that I don't forgive easily. When someone says things about you that you over hear or even the lack of respect for months, how do you then feel like they are genuine... And I have heard things I haven't repeated and dealt with crap because I just don't want to be the one that complains all the time. Yet how do u move past this and not feel anger or mistrust... Yet how do u accept being told its all ok, we just must deal with it. I guess my morals are different and I have higher expectations in people. Yet maybe I'm being overly sensitive in the business world and there are always going to be those type of people. I guess in the end, I deal until I don't have to anymore! So my rich dream man better hurry it up!!!!! Thanks for listening to me babble as usual, and I love getting things off my chest. Being an over emotional being sucks sometimes.