Ashtin update

I cannot be happy enough to say Ashtin is doing so much better!!! When he woke up at the hospital on Friday he seemed like his old self. The meds they gave him did great!! Do now he has different meds for home until we can get to the neurologist. He has done great all weekend and says that he feels better than he has in months! So happy to hear! So now we are waiting for our appointment at the neurologist and they will hopefully be able to give us answers on the head pains. Thank you so much for all your prayers.

My strong son

I sit here with Ashtin in the hospital while he sleeps and just cry... We were here yesterday and back today. They have been able to thankfully rule out any type of blood issues, leukemia, and growths in his head, but yet we still don't have a great answer. We do know that he is anemic and low iron, his white blood cell count remains low to show his low tolerance to fight off viruses and sickness, and the low sugars. So, the headaches still have no direct answer or fix. We are here today because of a rough night and they said he seemed dehydrated so he got fluids with a "migraine cocktail." Yes, that is their name for it!  They have run a few more tests today to check a few things that have slipped through the cracks, but no results yet. He had a breakdown at home this morning when I said the doctor said go back, but we discussed that we shouldn't need more blood tests due to how many have been done recently and he calmed down. I said we were going to focus on his head and he was happy to hear that. So what do they do when we get here, give him an IV. He got pretty mean with everyone and kept saying just fix my headaches and you don't need any more of my blood.... Poor kid. They during the first 5 min he sat up and said he couldn't breathe.... They came in and he had a reaction to how cold it was and it made his arm twitch and it scared him.. Now he is sleeping like an angel, and before he fell asleep he asked me to promise they would figure it out this time.... So I sit here and cry while he sleeps. I am so thankful that we have not found anything serious so far and a lot has been ruled out, and I can only imagine how those parents feel who spend more time in here with sick kiddos... But seeing you baby so upset and crying is so tough. I'm praying that everything looks good on tests today, yet also that we get answers soon and that my baby feels back to himself with no more headaches..... Here is a pic of him sleeping.

Fun weekend

We had such a great weekend and the kids had so much fun!! Friday night we had our cousins birthday party at Dor-Lo pizza in Ashland, Yummy!!!!!! Saturday we went up to cleveland for tge Piston car show. My brother was up there with his car club with their cars, so we hung out and he showed the boys around. The boys did the soap box derby and rock climbing wall. Yet my fav part of the weekend was spending Saturday night with Liz and her family. I miss her so much and our visits are too far between! I have so few people in my life that I trust and that have been with me through it all, and she has been there every step... No matter how long it's been, it never affects our friendship... The night of wine and talking went so fast and the kids played  all night. The kids have all grown up together. Sunday we got to see family and spent time with Debbie and Clover!
I wanted to upload pics, but it's not working.grrrr. I will post them later.

Ashtin update

Well, after a lot of doctor appointments, time at the hospital, blood tests, cat scan, we still don't have an exact answer.... Ashtin has now lost almost 13 pounds, and the headaches seem to be getting worse. He is now having pain in his arm and leg that does not show on the outside yet when she did a strength test his arm was weak. With his white blood count still low we are moving forward with some new testing in that direction. We are also going to be going to a neurologist in a few weeks and he is on migraine medication.
Taking him to school after his appoinent today was so hard. Here your child is crying due to a headache, yet has missed so much school... I think he is now scared because of all the doctors and tests, and is saying his stomach is upset..... It's breaking my heart..... Keep him in your prayers please!

Ashtin

I ask you to keep Ashtin in your prayers and hopefully with some positive thinking everything will be good.. For the past few months he has had some issues with a lot of headaches . We went to the doctor to discuss it and came to talk about his lack of appetite, he is always tired, he has lost weight, become more pale than normal with dark circles under his eyes,  and these dang headaches keep continuing. He had strept briefly a few weeks back and they were hoping this was the cause, yet all the symptoms keep continuing. We have done one round of blood work and have been called in for more. If this doesn't help come to a conclusion we are headed to a neurologist. Let's hope not. Just the thought of that is scarey. So today we are off to more tests and hoping the needle goes alittle smoother this time! How come with ourselves we are easier to deal with things, but when our children go through things, we stress so much... They are my everything, and I hate to see them not feeling well.

Frosty

The kids are pretty excited to have Frosty home!! We rescued Frosty 3 years ago, and when moving into our home our landlord said no to pets... Frosty has been staying at my Grandmas since then, yet the kids have really been pushing for a pet! I have really wanted frosty back, and just decided to take the risk . He is fixed and has all for paws declawed, so I felt comfortable that there was no issue !! Tge boys have been so happy to have him back home.

Gavin's first sleepover

My baby is all grown up..... He got to go to his first sleepover away from home. I was way more nervous than he was. Yet, the anxiety you go through letting your kids stay at someone else's house is insane. With all the horrible things that you hear about on the news, it makes you not want to trust anyone with your kids!!!! I have met this parent multiple times and her son has stayed at my house, yet when you have never been to their home or know how they live you get worried..... I guess at some point we have to hope that we have taught our children right and what to do when someone else is being wrong.... So of course I asked a million questions when I picked him up to make sure he was safe, when all along I probably worried too much!!!  They grow up so fast.... Yet I will say that my house was pretty quiet for about 18 hours..... Yet we missed him, especially Uncle Ben!!

Change for a better life starts on the inside!

I found this somewhere and loved it.... It's so true, my suffering will never disappear or not be, but what I do with it and how I grow and how I show my children to be is the most important part.

Thrifty Mamma

I saved myself about $100 today! I gave myself a pedicure and cut all 3 boys hair myself! My feet feel so much better. I tried talking the boys into doing it, but when I said feet they all went running....... I will remind them of this next time they want something!!!! LOL. I watched a blog video on cutting boys hair and it made so much sense and not at all how I normally tried doing, and this time it looks so much better... Awesome!

Had to share my special videos!!!

Recent Pics of my fav people

Negativity

Have you ever tried to turn around every negative thought or feeling you have with a positive??? Well, you really start to realize how much of a downer you are.... So instead maybe I will just try to think before I speak or do and make it positive before it turns negative...  I know, easier said then done, but I have to find something to turn my pity parties into something positive rather than my misery.... I have the DNA that makes me so emotional and sappy so I let the bad stuff run..... So in order to make these changes, I am going to start with whom I surround myself with. All bad things that happen usually had a sign before that it was headed to disaster.....  I am a people pleaser and someone that grasps to anything that looks shiny on the outside!!! Well, not anymore.... That shiny thing was dangled and made me feel special for a moment even though I knew it was wrong... Then that shiny thing offered something I really needed. When I thought someone had my back, they didn't, yet I'm sure they hope I have theirs... Always, I let myself believe that because of those few moments you would have my back, but I was wrong.... I have such an issue with trust and feel that everyone always lets me down, but not anymore..... Everyone only looks out for themselves and why shouldn't I?? I will be nice and positive and let nobody in to stay protected... That's safe, that will keep me out of trouble, that will keep my heart from hurting anymore... So when people wonder why I'm always so closed off, you can thank all those that chipped away at my trust and heart.... Is this what I want, No... Is this what I need to get past, Yes.....

No more facebook

I can't believe how hard that actually was..... I said I was gonna do it, then realized I had a ton of stuff on there not saved anywhere else... My laptop crashed and I am so unaware if I will ever retrieve all the stuff, soooo I had to get all my pics off my page.. But anyway, why you ask... For the most part I spend way too much time puttsing on there when I could be doing so much more productive things or doing something with the boys... Second, I found that my business and personal life was becoming an open book for some not so polite and nice people.... Those hiding their secrets of betrayal by pointing the finger elsewhere. But any who, moving past that and staying away from the negotive. I may kiss and  tell on that another day..... You never know me.