The stuff my mind thinks about

So as I sit here and think about all the things that will need to be done for this journey that I am going to be taking in my life, one day comes to mind. As most of you know, last year at this time I also moved out and separated from David. During that time the kids and I had been renting a double from a friend of ours. I made alot of mistakes, like not working and sitting on my unemployment. Doing this made me very lonely and bored most days. One day in particular, that really sums up how I was feeling at the time, was just horrible. It all started with going to the grocery store with the kids. I had gotten quite a bit of stuff, and we were heading home I believe and driving through a major 4 way stop light. As my light turned green, I went to go, and to my surprise the hatch of my van opened and everything went into the main intersection. Not one person stopped to help me clean it up or anything..... I had to pull to the side and do it myself with all 3 kids screaming in the back seat. Then as we get home, Ashtin was so excited to make our valentines day cupcakes, so we got everything out, including the HUGE container of red/pink/white ball sprinkles. As I am in the other room, Ashtin tried to open the sprinkles himself by pulling the top off, not screwing. Needless to say, the whole kitchen and inside of the stove, just EVERYWHERE had little sprinkles...... Later that night while I was showering, Ashtin comes in and says, "mom you might want to come out here.....", Landyn was standing on my kitchen sink with the sink spray hose in his hand, watering the whole kitchen.......

So yes, I am scared, nervous, and straight up petrified about this decision.... Yet, I hope that all the happiness will help me handle those situations.... Just on my mind, and felt like sharing. I have really taken to blogging rather than writing in my journal.. Hope you enjoy my thoughts, fears, and funny stories.